Over the last year I've been struggling with finding purpose. It's something I pray about daily. I have a variety of passions, gifts and experiences. But I also have many hindrances.
I've dealt with anxiety, OCD, infertility, IVF, digestive problems, tests, treatments, surgeries.
What do I do with all of that?
I give it to God and let him lead the way. In fact I think He answered my question before I ever asked it.
I've been blogging for four years now (me, the person that NEVER dreamed of writing). My blog is called Homemade Dutch Apple Pie. If you look just below the title, though, you'll see a few key words that sum it up - Faith, Family, Food. I've had direction all along. I just didn't have the details.
No matter what issues I write about or deal with my faith is first. The purpose of any Christian is to spread God's Word and share his love.
So this whole year while I was wondering what on earth I'm supposed to be doing God was opening doors and providing more and more opportunities for me to share my passion for food and health. More ways to share my story and my experiences.
God was giving me a purpose and making it clear...even if I didn't see it at the time. It's amazing how we can be so blind to the things God is showing us. Reminds me that I need to take more time to listen and watch when I ask God for things.
So, here it is. I have a purpose.
I am a writer.
My plan (God's plan) for now is to pursue writing opportunities. To use my blog and other media to share my story. To share my experiences. To hopefully help others and keep them from making some of the mistakes I've made.
I want to share my passions. I want to make my blog and my writing my business. I want to share my faith and God's love with others.
I have made a lot of progress in my healing journey over the last 10 years. But I still have a lot of challenges. I still have a lot to learn. I still have a lot to share. I still have a purpose.
In the coming year...and hopefully years to come...I want to continue to share my journey through personal healing, through marriage, through motherhood.
I'm not sure about all of the details, but I know God will work it out. I might update the look of my blog (in time). I have a feeling I'll be sharing some of our journey of treatment with Rebecca when the time is right/when we have more answers. I will hopefully have more to share about my own health and struggles with anxiety and OCD. Mental health is such a mystery.
I might do giveaways. I might start a newsletter. I might get more involved with social media.
For now all I know is that God has given me a purpose and a plan. I don't know how all of my passions will play a part in this. And maybe some of them won't. I do know that God has a reason for all of them and a reason for making me the way I am.
I'm not JUST a stay at home mom. I'm not defined by my health problems. I'm not just getting by.
This post is linked to Fresh Bites Friday.