Healthy Living Goals Week of 10-25-09

So, you can probably guess what my goal for this week is...get through jury duty :P All I know at this point is that I have to report Monday morning. I hate the uncertainty of it/not knowing where I'm going/not knowing what I'm doing/etc. That is part of what gives me so much anxiety. If I know what to expect I can prepare for it. But when I don't then my anxiety goes way up. Although the idea of being on a jury and seeing how it all works sounds nice/interesting, the reality of it for me is not so nice. There are many personal factors (bladder issues, bowel issues, anxiety, OCD). But a huge part is also being away from Rebecca. I will have to leave before she gets up (unless she happens to wake up early). She has never had to get up without me being home. That alone wouldn't be so bad...she's fine with Justin. But he'll have to leave for work soon after she gets up. She'll be spending the day with my parents. I hope she does ok having to stay with people she doesn't know well and not getting to see Mommy at all when she gets up. I'll be super nervous about her all day. And hoping she's ok/she's eating ok/she's sleeping ok/etc. It will be hard for both of us to be apart. I hate being away from her for very long. So there are really 2 big factors...me and Rebecca. Not to mention I hate making my parents come out here so early in the morning and not being able to give them more details on my schedule/how long I'll need their help. I just hope I end up not having to do much this week. I know we'll all get through it. But right now it seems very overwhelming. The nerves/anxiety already started kicking in yesterday. I felt worse than I have in a long time. So I'm not feeling very positive about the week ahead. Say a prayer.

Other than jury duty I'm hoping Rebecca and I can make it to Justin's work Halloween party...everyone's kids come in the afternoon, dressed up and walk around to get candy. We haven't seen Justin's new office yet (since he became a manager) so I'm excited about that!

We are working on planning a date night. It's tentatively scheduled for Nov. 13 right now. But we're still working on the details. I am also very excited about this. We need to make an effort to get out more often as a couple.

For something creative I am making a cake for my SIL's recital. If I have time I'll do some of the baking this week. Otherwise I'll have to do all the baking and decorating next week.

For fun stuff with Rebecca I would like to do some baking. We are almost out of granola and grahams. She loves to help make both of those. Not sure if we'll be able to go to Kindermusik this week. Just depends on my schedule. If I have to be at jury duty I might as my mom to take her.

I am also teaching sunday school today. I used to help with our jr. high youth group/sunday school. But I took a break last year. I offered to help once in a while this year. Today is my first Sunday teaching. Hopefully that will go ok. Not the best day to have extra stuff since I already have a ton to do to prep for tomorrow. But I'll manage.

There is a chance I will get together with a friend. But again, it will depend on jury duty/how I'm feeling.

Finally I have recently decided to scale back on some of my posting about my schedule/my struggles (pyschology stuff/OCD). I think it will be good for me to try to not think about it as much and just live like a "normal" person :) I will post some updates if I have some good news to share. And I will try to focus more on true personal goals...like what creative projects I'm trying, what fun things I'm doing, what I'm reading, etc. Without getting bogged down in details about when/where/what time. I have another appt. with my psychologist next Mon. I may or may not post updates. That doesn't mean things are bad or anything. I just want to keep working on healing and living life. I know it's a week early, but I think this is going to be one of my main healthy living goals for November.