Wow. September was quite a
whirlwind of activities, new routines, lifestyle changes, health ups and downs.
It's good to take a minute and look back at how the month went.
Overall I made huge strides in my healing. But I also had some
setbacks last week while my husband was out of town and I was a bit
over-stressed. I won't give up, though. Even with the setbacks I've
come a long way in a short amount of time. Here's how it went. And some links from this month.
1. Healing
*Experiment with my Betaine dosage - I
started just taking one with breakfast each day. While I know it would be
very helpful to take one (or more) with each meal, I just can't spend that kind
of money on supplements right now.
*Possibly start seeing a chiropractor to help with healing and overall body function and to address my scoliosis. - I have not gone yet, but I do have my first visit scheduled. And I found out that I can go up to 25 times from now until the end of year...and it's mostly covered by insurance! And I can get free message therapy too.
*Light exercise, possibly start taking yoga classes again. - I have started walking briskly on the treadmill for 15-20 minutes a day. Nothing major. But it feels good to move my body a little. I would love to take yoga classes, but again, the cost. We had a lot of expenses in September and really need to watch our spending.
*Possibly start seeing a chiropractor to help with healing and overall body function and to address my scoliosis. - I have not gone yet, but I do have my first visit scheduled. And I found out that I can go up to 25 times from now until the end of year...and it's mostly covered by insurance! And I can get free message therapy too.
*Light exercise, possibly start taking yoga classes again. - I have started walking briskly on the treadmill for 15-20 minutes a day. Nothing major. But it feels good to move my body a little. I would love to take yoga classes, but again, the cost. We had a lot of expenses in September and really need to watch our spending.
*Continue to push my OCD - sleep in more,
eliminate compulsions, give up control. I will also be using my afternoon
free time to do my baking and experimenting. It will be a good
distraction for me. - I have been quite amazed with the progress I've made on my OCD. I've pushed myself harder and let go of more in the past month than I have in the past 3 years. It gives me a lot of hope for healing that area of my life.
*I hope my
swelling/fluid retention starts to go down at some point this month if I
continue to eat well and get rest. - Sadly I do still have swelling. But
I hope it gets better as I find balance and keep allowing my body to heal.
*Research leptin - a critical thing for hormone function. - I did not look into this, but did look at overall body healing.
*Research and maybe purchase a water filter to remove fluoride (and other heavy metals) from our water. - I have figured out which water filter I would like. We have to discuss when to purchase it...again, the money. Why does everything have to cost so much? Being healthy sure is expensive.
*Research leptin - a critical thing for hormone function. - I did not look into this, but did look at overall body healing.
*Research and maybe purchase a water filter to remove fluoride (and other heavy metals) from our water. - I have figured out which water filter I would like. We have to discuss when to purchase it...again, the money. Why does everything have to cost so much? Being healthy sure is expensive.
2. Food Preservation
September is when my canning really gets going! - I
canned pearsauce, peaches and salsa.
3. Mommy-Daughter Date
Sadly this
did not happen. But we already have one
planned for this Saturday.
4. Simply settle into routines
We're still getting there. Our days are much busier. And Rebecca is still trying to adjust. But we're working on it.
5. Acceptance
This seems to get
harder by the day. I don't like being at the middle of this process.
I know somewhere down the road my body will be done with the intense
healing. I know my weight will stabilize. I know the swelling will
go down. I know I will be able to exercise a little more and get my body
back in shape/get stronger. But I'm not there yet. And I have to
accept it. This is so hard for me. I'm not one to just sit back and
wait. I like to be proactive and productive! But I can't
really speed this up. I just have to let my body do what it needs to do.
And accept that I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. Accept that I
have to go up 3 or 4 sizes for a while. Accept that sometimes I need to
put my feet up when I'd rather be getting things done. Accept that a lot
of this is the result of poor choices I made almost 20 years ago. Accept
that this is not an overnight fix. Accept that I am not in control.
And trust that God has good things planned. He is good. He
can do amazing things. And He will use this for his glory.
This is still a
work in progress. But I am accepting
things. And I'm hopeful for what God has
in store.
****LINKS****
Here are some great links from fellow bloggers.
-> A round up of healthy chocolate recipes. Yes, please!
-> Another recipe for homemade gummies. I might have to tr this. Watermelon sounds delicious!
-> Some great remedies for arthritis and joint pain. I need to try more of these as I heal I think.
-> I still always use unrefined coconut oil. But I really should try the refined. It can be very healthy as well. And maybe easier to digest.
-> Some natural remedies for eczema. I may have to try these on my son.
-> A great post on recovering fertility after birth control. I wish I had known all of this 7 years ago!
Here are my posts from September. As you can see life was quite busy this month, and I didn't have much time for creating recipes. I also spent a lot of my kitchen time canning peaches, pears, spaghetti sauce and salsa.
Sounds like it was a great month, overall! Its wonderful to hear that you've made such progress with your OCD!
ReplyDeleteGreat job on the canning! I didn't end up doing any peaches, sadly... but I did freeze some, at least. They just didn't work out with our trip to Vermont, unfortunately. I did can lots of tomatoes, some pears (more to come as they start to ripen), just one batch of salsa (still have quite a bit from last year), and have a great start on applesauce so far. I'm hoping to get back to the orchard tonight to pick some more apples so that I can get another batch done tomorrow night. I'd also like to can some more apple pie filling. I've been having fun trying new recipes to bake with apples, too. I'd like to make up some pies and freeze them if I have the time, as well. It's always nice to have easy desserts on hand in the freezer for last minute things. :)
I posted a comment on your facebook recently when you talked about being impatient with your healing. #5 was just what I needed to hear. I read it three times and cried! It is so hard to be patient and to trust that God knows what He is doing! Okay, I better go to sleep now. Only 10 1/2 hrs. until the babies wake up. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Sara. I have actually been quite amazed with how much progress I've made on the OCD lately. Now that I've let go of a lot of it it saddens me how much time I wasted on it. But I know it was out of my control...trying to be in control. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteI got quite a bit of canning done. I haven't started on apples yet, though. Justin's parents will bring us apples this weekend. Then it's time for applesauce :) I should try doing pie filling. I bet that would be great on pancakes and waffles!
So glad it struck a cord with you, Rachel. It is HARD to heal and do the right thing sometimes...especially when it's the opposite of what our culture says. I'm not dieting. I'm not trying to look a certain way. I just want to be healthy. What may appear to some as my looks declining (and therefore assuming my health as well) is actually me making the biggest health improvements I've made my whole life. Enjoy your sleep.